My brother Kevin thinks God lives under his bed.  At least that's what I
heard him say one night.  He was praying out loud in his dark bedroom, and I
stopped outside his closed door to listen.  Are you there, God?"
he said.  Where are you?  Oh, I see.  Under the bed."  I giggled softly and
tiptoed off to my own room.
Kevin's unique perspectives are often a source of amusement.  But that night
something else lingered long after the humour.  I realized for the first
time the very different world Kevin lives in.  He was born 30 years ago,
mentally disabled as a result of difficulties during labour.  Apart from his
size (he's 6-foot-2), there are few ways in which he is an adult.
He reasons and communicates with the capabilities of a 7-year-old, and he
always will.
He will probably always believe that God lives under his bed, that Santa
Claus is the one who fills the space under our tree every Christmas, and
that airplanes stay up in the sky because angels carry them.
I remember wondering if Kevin realizes he is different.  Is he ever
dissatisfied with his monotonous life?  Up before dawn each day, off to work
at a workshop for the disabled, home to walk our cocker spaniel, returning
to eat his favourite macaroni-and-cheese for dinner, and later to bed.
The only variation in the entire scheme are laundry days, when he hovers
excitedly over the washing machine like a mother with her newborn child.  He
does not seem dissatisfied.  He lopes out to the bus every morning at 7:05,
eager for a day of simple work.  He wrings his hands excitedly while the
water boils on the stove before dinner, and he stays up late twice a week to
gather our dirty laundry for his next day's laundry chores.
And Saturdays-oh, the bliss of Saturdays!  That's the day my dad takes Kevin
to the airport to have a soft drink, watch the planes land, and speculate
loudly on the destination of each passenger inside.  "That one's goin' to
Chi-car-go!" Kevin shouts as he claps his hands.  His anticipation is so
great he can hardly sleep on Friday nights.  I don't think Kevin knows
anything exists outside his world of daily rituals and weekend field trips.
He doesn't know what it means to be discontent.  His life is simple.
He will never know the entanglement of wealth of power, and he does not care
what brand of clothing he wears or what kind of food he eats.  He recognizes
no differences in people, treating each person as an equal and a friend.
His needs have always been met, and he never worries that one day they may
not be.  His hands are diligent.
Kevin is never so happy as when he is working.  When he unloads the
dishwasher or vacuums the carpet, his heart is completely in it.  He does
not shrink from a job when it is begun, and he does not leave a job until it
is finished.  But when his tasks are done, Kevin knows how to relax.
He is not obsessed with his work or the work of others.  His heart is pure.
He still believes everyone tells the truth, promises must be kept, and when
you are wrong, you apologize instead of argue.  Free from pride and
unconcerned with appearances, Kevin is not afraid to cry when he is hurt,
angry or sorry.  He is always transparent, always sincere.  
And he trusts God.

Not confined by intellectual reasoning, when he comes to God, he comes as a
child.  Kevin seems to know God-to really be friends with Him in a way that
is difficult for an "educated" person to grasp.  God seems like his closest
companion.  In my moments of doubt and frustrations with my Christianity, I
envy the security Kevin has in his simple faith.  It is then that I am most
willing to admit that he has some divine knowledge that rises above my
mortal questions.  It is then I realize that perhaps he is not the one with
the handicap-I am.  My obligations, my fear, my pride, my circumstances-they
all become disabilities when I do not submit them to God.  Who knows if
Kevin comprehends things I can never learn?

After all, he has spent his whole life in that kind of innocence, praying
after dark and soaking up the goodness and love of the Lord.
And one day, when the mysteries of heaven are opened, and we are all amazed
at how close God really is to our hearts, I'll realize that God heard the
simple prayers of a boy who believed that God lived under his bed.  
Kevin won't be surprised at all.
 
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